my moral standing is lying down

But hey look, this is what happened tonight (Patrick was actualfax this close. *_____* http://lockerz.com/s/156835692), and it was the best possible follow-up to fun times earlier today!

I took video of my two favorites, Everybody Wants Somebody and Run Dry (X Heart X Fingers), plus his impromptu cover of Steve Goodman's The City of New Orleans! I'm currently uploading them to my youtube and linking from my tumblr, so check back in a few hours!

After the show I actually got to ask him "...so what's next?" and he started answering like, this was the last stop on the tour, there's nothing else scheduled, etc., but I said, "no, no, I mean, what's your next style of music?" I had wanted to explain that I was referencing this interview he'd given where he implied he wanted to do all different styles -- the one where he says he did the R&B album first because doing it when you're older is kind of creepy -- but there was a long line and although Patrick would've stopped to chat with everyone, the security was rushing us all through pretty quickly. But then he went and tweeted this a little later and I can't help but think that it was in response to my question (though tbf probably other fans asked it too?). I'm going to just go on believing it was all me.

merelyn got a quick photo for me, though, and I'm really quite pleased at how it turned out! =DDD




Hey, did I ever post about the P!ATD M&G I got to go to at the Philly show? ALSKDJFALSJFLSAJFLSAJ I'll post about that next (even though it's been almost two weeks now).

I always end up meeting the coolest people waiting on line, or even just next to me in the crowd, etc. And somehow I'm not shy about starting up a conversation with strangers at a concert like I am pretty much EVERYWHERE ELSE. starsparkle333 suggested that it's because we're all there for the same reason/same interest, but I'm still super shy about chatting up strangers even at CONS, with fangirls, ffs!

...and did I mention how many lovely, lovely fellow bandom fangirls I met and chatted and squeed with yesterday? ILU GUYS! <333

In any case, some guy ordered too much pizza and offered my group the extra slices (which was awesome because other than a jamba juice at 2pm, that would be all I would eat until 11pm). And then I made two friends waiting in line. One SKYDIVES as like, a serious hobby -- like, she goes every weekend or something and packs her own chute and dives alone (not tandem) and she's like, I COULD TEACH YOU HOW TO PACK, YOU CAN COME DIVE WITH ME (in Michigan). We were sort of going on about how awesome it is and basically the other girls with us looked at us like we're nuts. If I'm in/near SF again I'm going to Lodi and diving again for $100, no matter what.

The other friend I made took this photo that's making the rounds; she's a pretty big fan of Panic and bandom-related bands like TAI and Empires and such; we bonded over previous concert experiences and also claiming our spots in the third row when we were let in, making a much-needed beer run even though the crowd was already ridiculous, and being surrounded by 15-year old girls. UGH. While I'll make an exception for a few Panic shows, I'd really rather stick to metal shows in the future.

The Black Cards were cute -- because PETE WENTZ IS TINY AND ADORABLE AND HAS THE CUTEST SMILE (second only to Spencer Smith's). But I'm not a huge fan of his music and it seems I never will be. Neon Trees were... good? The crowd was actually the rowdiest for them? Or, it seemed that way because I'd gotten to the barrier by the time Panic played and so I didn't have to fight for ground so much anymore. The singer is sort of fascinating to watch, but I'm just not a fan of their music. He does remind me a lot of a former coworker of mine, which amuses me to no end.

Then Panic came out and the first time Brendon ran over to our side, I thiiiiiink he may possibly have recognized me because of my glasses?! He complimented them on Wednesday when I MET HIM AND ZACK IN CENTRAL PARK. And then I got into this conversation with Zack about whether my glasses were Not Real a la the Matrix. =DDDDDDDD

As concerts go, Panic's show really isn't my idea of a good concert. I think there are just too many 15-year old girls for me to be able to get into it... also the lack of, you know, hard rock/metal sound... but I've pretty much started thinking of concerts as paying to see canon performed live. And that works for me. =D

Seeing Panic partially cover Personal Jesus also works for me.

In celebration of Spencer's birthday today, Brendon dedicated Always to him because -- in Brendon's own words -- "he's a sexy bastard". Spencer ran out in front of the stage to, you know, be serenaded and open his arms to Brendon's metaphorical embrace. The whole thing was sweet, including when the crowd sang "Happy Birthday" to Spencer and Brendon was amused and happy about it, and just. There was really just so much happy there. SO MANY SPENCER SMILES. I wish I'd been able to capture them all but Spencer is just too far away for my lack of zoom. =(

AND THEN PETE WENTZ JOINED THEM ON STAGE TO PLAY IWSNT AND IT WAS BEYOND ADORABLE TO SEE DALLON SHOWING PETE THE PROPER FINGERING WHEN PETE DIDN'T KNOW IT.

Yes, I said proper fingering.

But my favorite part (besides all of Spencer's parts... and maybe also a few of Pete Wentz's parts -- oh yeah, did I mention I got to touch his hipbone one of the times he dove into the crowd?), was seeing Brendon's spazzy dancing. I love it to death. <3333

So, in case you didn't see me spamming the rest of my social networks with Flux Pavillion updates, the show was awesome and I danced for ever! 1. There was a MOSH PIT. At a dubstep show. This is total win. 2. I was so soaked through with (my own and others') sweat that it looked like I got caught in a rain shower; my hair was plastered to my head. 3. Pot. People shared. I took a toke here and there and didn't have to pay and it was perfect. 4. I slapped some hot girl's ass. With permission, of course. <3 5. DIRTY BASS. THERE WAS SO MUCH OF IT. FUCK YES. I'm always disappointed when I go to a dubstep party and the DJs aren't spinning stuff with lots of dirty or wobbly bass. IT IS SO MY THING.

Can I just go to a different concert every week? That's not greedy, right?

So I will be getting inked again a week and a half from now. Yeah, no, I kind of can't really afford it. But I've been planning to get these tats done for months now, and even at that point it was getting to be an urgent feeling. I've only lasted this long because I had a date to look forward to. LAKJSDLFJASLFJLSAJFL;AJ GUYS, I WANT THESE TATS SO BAD I COULD CRY. RIGHT NOW.

This is for MY WOLFPACK (ILU GUYS). And also just because SPENCER FUCKING SMITH.

WHILE I WAS FUCKING ASLEEP, GODDAMMIT. What's funny is that Brendon's tweet actually woke me up.... but I thought either I was dreaming or that he clearly didn't mean what I thought he meant and I went back to sleep. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

( ....so then I thought maybe I should put those HALF-NAKED!BRENDON URIE pics behind a cut.... )

ALL I'M SAYING IS THAT MY EXPECTATIONS FOR THE CENTRAL PARK SHOW IN SEPTEMBER ARE HIGHER THAN EVER BEFORE OKAY.

ETA: I don't think there's actually any way I could possibly love Spencer Smith more (NSFW).

...well. Maybe if he got some tattoos.

Why is Bradley James on twitter now? (I'm not sure I should thank zarathuse for informing me, or... well, yes, I suppose I just have to thank her.)

AND WHY IS HE SO FUCKING ADORABLE?! WHYYYYYYYYYY?!

As I said on twitter earlier today:

current obsessions: mind-heist, porn, neo-noir, porn, and victorian romance. and hockey. and porn. WHAT IS MY BRAIN?

I told Liz that maybe I shouldn't have tweeted with so much porn in there but w/e, it's not like anyone who doesn't actually know me would be surprised. I said people might be more surprised at the Victorian romance part of it. To which she said "victorian romance = porn" and I said that it's repressed porn but hot nonetheless and we both kind of HEEEEE'd over it. =D

Just finished reading Pride & Prejudice for the first time ever. It was wonderful; the dialogue was hilarious and Elizabeth Bennett's conversation with Mr. Darcy at the end is simply wonderful. Everything that I expected from the BBC TV miniseries with Colin Firth and Jennifer Ehle from the mid-90s. I blame the start of my Anglophilia on that TV series. My poor 14-year-old heart couldn't take it and buckled under the strain of Mr. Darcy's oh-so-British reserve (and never mind the accent)!

I borrowed Juliet's DVDs and am looking extremely forward to watching them tonight.

In addition, I can't wait to see Brick again; I'm awaiting the arrival of the DVD. Damn media mail; takes too long and it's not trackable. =(

FUCKING WEIRD DREAMS AGAIN.

Started out with... (Liz is going to DIE laughing right now...) Brandon Prust. I dreamt that Prusty joined Twitter... AND eljay. I know I tweeted something to him -- and he @replied to me! Also, in the spirit of keeping my dreams realistic, someone else I know on Twitter, who is slightly stalkery (we all know who I'm talking about, yes?) ALSO tweeted at him and received @replies.

In the meantime, my conversation with Prusty (which sometimes seemed to be on Twitter and sometimes was on LJ) turned into a dirty flirty type of thing... and either he ended up doing really nice, um, Bad Things to me, or he was describing them in the conversation and I was imagining them. Hard to tell the difference as it was all in my head anyway.

I think at this point I woke up a little, because I thought, Ooooh, why am I dreaming about Prust? Wait, this was a good dream, LET ME GO BACK TO IT. And I did. But I could never quite see my conversation with Prust so clearly anymore. I do know that both my and the other stalkery-girl's conversation with him continued, but I couldn't read the words anymore. SADNESS. Still, he was replying to a LOT of people and I wondered how he had so much time to have Twitter/LJ conversations with people.

Then my dream took a weird turn and suddenly I was an employee of a Best Buy-type store, but smaller. We were there early for a staff meeting, but the staff leader or whatever wasn't there yet, so the bunch of us were kind of just milling around. On one of the counters there was a necklace with a very heavy pendant -- kind of in the shape of a large diamond, maybe approximately 1.5-2" across on top. It was covered with a rubber film. I took it and put it on and promptly forgot about it.

We were eventually asked to sit down (there were chairs set up at 3 or 4 8-foot tables) and there was a projector with a power point presentation at the front of the room. And the guy running the meeting (who seemed to be a corporate rep doing like a team building exercise?) was speaking into a microphone, asking questions (completely unlike any team building exercise I can imagine). Reminiscent of school, I was busy chatting with my neighboring coworkers -- there was one from another branch, so I hadn't met her, who had a NANJO KOJI NOTEBOOK! WTF! How I all of a sudden have Zetsuai on my mind, I have NO IDEA! But of course I had to start talking with her about it. I was quite jealous because she'd read the series in the original Japanese. ;_;

This whole time I'd been kind of popping that pendant into my mouth occasionally. What can I say, okay, I have a... thing. Whatever. Oral fixation. Where I like to put things in my mouth chew on things. ANYWAY, I had this sudden realization that OMG that diamond-shaped pendant IS ACTUALLY THE OTHER MICROPHONE THEY'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR. *groan* I took it off and took the rubber film off the pendant STOP LAUGHING and then by flipping the head of the microphone over in its base, it activates the microphone.

I WAS SO EMBARRASSED! Actually, I wasn't really. I was only mildly embarrassed, and mostly didn't care too much. YAY DREAMS! Because if that had happened in real life I would have just died.

There was some more in the dream -- like, during the whole staff meeting scene, I kept kind of scene-switching to my apartment (not my real one) and looking at my blue-curtained windows from the inside (I have black curtains IRL), which were moving in the breeze and revealing a flower pot on the window sill (which I also don't have IRL). And then after a few seconds of looking at that, I'd jump back to the staff meeting scene. So yeah, I have no idea what that's all about.

Also, I'm kind of disappointed that I didn't get to talk more about Nanjo Koji with that girl. And even more disappointed I never got to continue whatever-it-was with Prust. SERIOUSLY.

My curiosity got the better of me and I checked out jimbutcher's website, jim-butcher.com... and discovered that the next book in the Codex Alera series, First Lord's Fury is to be released November 24, 2009! ARGH! It's both too soon and too far away! If it was like January or February, I'd think it was too far to really think about. And if it was sooner, like a month from now, I'd just be excited to read it soon.

And, OMG.

He's on twitter too.

http://twitter.com/longshotauthor