my moral standing is lying down

Uhhh, seriously, I sound like Brendon (in that fic by LittleMousling where Ian teaches them how to talk dirty: Post-Modern Cyrano) where he sounds ridiculously uncool and utterly laughable every time he tries to say something hot. Which, btw, makes me crack the fuck up, it's so fucking hilarious.

But here I'm basically like, no one wants to hear me talk, let me rush to the end of every answer and trip over my own tongue while I'm at it. So yeah, I even forgot to mention that I'm pretty much "osaraba" everywhere? LJ, Dreamwidth, Tumblr, Twitter...

I swear I sound less like an idiot when there are no recording devices around. Those of you who've met me in person... well, nevermind.

( voice post meme questions inside! )

So, here goes...

Bandom voice post meme 11-22-11 by sarabakari

So while LJ was indisposed I decided to pretend it didn't exist and pretty much ignored the situation altogether. It seems to be back (or close) to normal now, so here I am. I've been in this weird limbo of unemployed with lots of free time.... and somehow finding myself sort of busy. And ffs, spending too much time with my parents. I spent 10 hours with them yesterday, helping my father buy and set up an awesome new laptop. But. TEN HOURS. =/

Just saw this movie from 2007 called Shelter, which was just great. It's about a guy named Zack, an artist in the ghetto of some SoCal city, with a sister who's a big flake and a 5-year old nephew who has clearly hung the moon and all because Zack is holding the ladder steady beneath him. His best friend goes out of town for a while and his brother stays there, and he and Zack end up hanging out, surfing a lot, and falling for each other.

Of course there's more to it, but it's pretty typical and straightforward -- nothing happens that you couldn't see coming a mile away, but it's sweet, and it's just-- nice to see this sort of romance/drama with a gay couple. =D I recommend it if you're looking for an easy, pleasant way to spend an hour and a half. <3

So now is where I'm going to get all fannish and say I WANT THE SPENCER/BRENDON AU! FIC FOR THIS MOVIE! They're surfer dudes! In southern California! The artist (~musician?) angle with family troubles is ALREADY THERE! There's an adorable kid! What more do we need? And really, WHY HASN'T THIS BEEN WRITTEN ALREADY? =(

And so I leave you with this, one of my favorites from the 8/09 Chicago M&G, from what I refer to in my head as Surfer-era!Panic. <3

Spencer was the boy at the drums with the gorgeous smile who could lay out a joke so dry it wasn't funny until Ryan laughed.

This description from Anywhere You Let It Go by skoosiepants has been stuck in my mind since I read it earlier this week; I just can't stop thinking about it. Anyway, if you haven't read any of her fic (which you probably have since it's like four years old by now), just go and read it all. Because it's all insanely quirky and amazing. And I now know more about fanon!MCR and fanon!Cobra Starship than I ever thought I would. Everyone in bandom is clearly nuts. =D

In other news, I have been a hermit this whole week, have barely talked to anyone, and it's sort of freaking me out but I can't seem to do a whole lot to fix it. =/

ETA: Oh yeah, Liz and Juliet found an apartment in Woodside, right off the 7 train, so even though it's not suuuuper easy to get to, they're going to be pretty close and it will all be theoretically awesome! Technically, there IS a bus, at least, that goes pretty closely between our places, so there's a plus.

Okay people, if you're not already reading this WIP on KMM you really should be. I was going to wait til it got further to rec it, and perhaps I ought to do so, but I have SO MANY ~FEELINGS about it right now, I can't help myself.

Arthur and Merlin both have visions of their happily-married future, but they don't even like each other currently, even if they have the same group of friends.

Ugh, this is why visions of the future are so shitty. It's like reading spoilers for your own life! Now that you've got a hint about what's going to happen, you find yourself noticing things you might not have noticed, having reactions you might not have had. IT'S ALL RUINED.

(If simply observing something changes it, then what, then, becomes of us when we have knowledge of our own future?!)

Without spoiling anything for those who might be interested in this, I will say that I'm loving author-anon's choice to stick to Arthur-POV only -- even though I'm dying to know what's going on in Merlin's mind about all this. I'm finding it very interesting to speculate and worry about all the possibilities, just like Arthur must be doing.

OH BOYS. You can't resist making things difficult for yourselves, can you?

---> Anon's The Future Soon. Modern!AU with magic. WIP (currently at part 8).

IN ADDITION: *bangs head against wall*

I've listened to the music. I've watched the interviews. I SAW THE BEYOND-ADORABLE HALLOWEEN MUSIC VIDEO. And I've... I've read a few Panic! at the Disco fics. It's likeaglass's fault completely (she happily accepted blame already). But yeah, now I'm asking PATD fans on my flist to rec some fics (or rec posts/archives/etc.) for me as I slowly make a little room for myself in this fandom.

And. And I'm going to their show again -- September 1st at Central Park's Rumsey Playfield -- with starsparkle333 and whoever else I know that's going. IT'S A 900-PERSON CAPACITY VENUE! I DON'T KNOW, OKAY, I FIGURED OUT WHAT I LIKE AND WHAT I DISLIKE ABOUT THEIR STUFF AND BDEN'S JUST SO PRETTY AND CHARISMATIC AND HIS VOICE IS FUCKING AMAZING. (Oh god, I really like hearing acoustic versions of their stuff.) AND THEY'RE JUST SO ADORBZ WITH THEIR ANTICS AND THEIR FRIENDSHIP AND THEIR MUSIC. WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS?

WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

So, you know, feel free to send help.