Out of touch.
Feb. 10th, 2002 03:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
osarabaWorking at GCS again today. Back into my regular routine of things, I suppose. Angelica's not picking me up on the way home today, which is kind of a disappointment; I had been looking forward to going home with her today. Ah well. But a friend dropped in out of the blue-- Kirsten, who I had met at Otakon last year, while standing on line waiting for Midorikawa Hikaru autographs. She lives in MD (where Otakon is located), but actually goes to school in NYC, so I saw her once or twice during the month after the con. Haven't spoken to her since 9-11 (her dorm was only a block or two away, poor thing) to find out if she was okay (which she was).
I've thought about getting back in touch with her every so often since then, but it seems like I've been too busy to really set up a date. Well, that and the fact that I'd forget between those times that I remembered. So she dropped in today 'cause she had an appointment somewhere in midtown, but it was cancelled, so she was on her way to Asahiya when she thought to drop by the store! Isn't that thoughtful of her? I was so happy to see her (not out of proportion, though). We talked for a few minutes -- about Otakon 2003, about J-rock & J-pop, manga, and other things -- and then she had to go, but the visit at least brightened my day a bit (and relieved the horrible, oppressing boredom that one cannot seem to escape here in the depths of Hell, uh, I mean, the store).
Sometimes I wish I had a friend to fall back on when Angelica can't (or doesn't want to) do something with me. I know, that sounds quite selfish and calculating, but it's true. Someone to just hang out with and have fun, and not feel like I want to get away from soon because they're either boring me to death, or the uncomfortable silence is pressing conversation into the ground -- which is what happens when I hang out with most other people (aside from my sister, of course). I wouldn't mind hanging out with Louie -- actually I'd like to hang out with her more often, but she's still in high school and therefore has a bit less flexibility in her schedule (and curfew).
I guess I'm just bored today. Maybe cabin fever has caught up with me, or something. I just don't feel like going straight home after work, but there's nothing else to do, really. I guess I'll probably eat out before going home, but I don't even know about that, considering I don't have anything to read and so what will I do -- sit there, eating and listening to music, bored to death and staring out into space? I swear, I feel like banging my head against a brick wall, having it crack open like a melon.... (Okay, I'm getting way too morbid, somebody stop me.)
I've thought about getting back in touch with her every so often since then, but it seems like I've been too busy to really set up a date. Well, that and the fact that I'd forget between those times that I remembered. So she dropped in today 'cause she had an appointment somewhere in midtown, but it was cancelled, so she was on her way to Asahiya when she thought to drop by the store! Isn't that thoughtful of her? I was so happy to see her (not out of proportion, though). We talked for a few minutes -- about Otakon 2003, about J-rock & J-pop, manga, and other things -- and then she had to go, but the visit at least brightened my day a bit (and relieved the horrible, oppressing boredom that one cannot seem to escape here in the depths of Hell, uh, I mean, the store).
Sometimes I wish I had a friend to fall back on when Angelica can't (or doesn't want to) do something with me. I know, that sounds quite selfish and calculating, but it's true. Someone to just hang out with and have fun, and not feel like I want to get away from soon because they're either boring me to death, or the uncomfortable silence is pressing conversation into the ground -- which is what happens when I hang out with most other people (aside from my sister, of course). I wouldn't mind hanging out with Louie -- actually I'd like to hang out with her more often, but she's still in high school and therefore has a bit less flexibility in her schedule (and curfew).
I guess I'm just bored today. Maybe cabin fever has caught up with me, or something. I just don't feel like going straight home after work, but there's nothing else to do, really. I guess I'll probably eat out before going home, but I don't even know about that, considering I don't have anything to read and so what will I do -- sit there, eating and listening to music, bored to death and staring out into space? I swear, I feel like banging my head against a brick wall, having it crack open like a melon.... (Okay, I'm getting way too morbid, somebody stop me.)
