the observer effect

Okay people, if you're not already reading this WIP on KMM you really should be. I was going to wait til it got further to rec it, and perhaps I ought to do so, but I have SO MANY ~FEELINGS about it right now, I can't help myself.

Arthur and Merlin both have visions of their happily-married future, but they don't even like each other currently, even if they have the same group of friends.

Ugh, this is why visions of the future are so shitty. It's like reading spoilers for your own life! Now that you've got a hint about what's going to happen, you find yourself noticing things you might not have noticed, having reactions you might not have had. IT'S ALL RUINED.

(If simply observing something changes it, then what, then, becomes of us when we have knowledge of our own future?!)

Without spoiling anything for those who might be interested in this, I will say that I'm loving author-anon's choice to stick to Arthur-POV only -- even though I'm dying to know what's going on in Merlin's mind about all this. I'm finding it very interesting to speculate and worry about all the possibilities, just like Arthur must be doing.

OH BOYS. You can't resist making things difficult for yourselves, can you?

---> Anon's The Future Soon. Modern!AU with magic. WIP (currently at part 8).

IN ADDITION: *bangs head against wall*

I've listened to the music. I've watched the interviews. I SAW THE BEYOND-ADORABLE HALLOWEEN MUSIC VIDEO. And I've... I've read a few Panic! at the Disco fics. It's likeaglass's fault completely (she happily accepted blame already). But yeah, now I'm asking PATD fans on my flist to rec some fics (or rec posts/archives/etc.) for me as I slowly make a little room for myself in this fandom.

And. And I'm going to their show again -- September 1st at Central Park's Rumsey Playfield -- with starsparkle333 and whoever else I know that's going. IT'S A 900-PERSON CAPACITY VENUE! I DON'T KNOW, OKAY, I FIGURED OUT WHAT I LIKE AND WHAT I DISLIKE ABOUT THEIR STUFF AND BDEN'S JUST SO PRETTY AND CHARISMATIC AND HIS VOICE IS FUCKING AMAZING. (Oh god, I really like hearing acoustic versions of their stuff.) AND THEY'RE JUST SO ADORBZ WITH THEIR ANTICS AND THEIR FRIENDSHIP AND THEIR MUSIC. WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS?

WHY AM I LIKE THIS?

So, you know, feel free to send help.

day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding

My father used to sing Gene Vincent's Be-Bop-A-Lula to me all the time when I was younger, so I suppose if I ever were to have a wedding this would be an important choice, I think it would make him happy like not much else. He loveslovesloves American rock'n'roll music from the 50s and early 60s, back when he was a teenager in Indonesia. "That kind" of music was sort of frowned upon and my father's father sort of banned listening to music in the house (a lot of which had to do with them living in the midst of a very large population of Muslims, and I gather this was a sensitive thing in that particular place and time). It's sort of crazy to realize what sort of upbringing he had, and what the social climate was like when and where he lived... and to compare that to what my own upbringing was like, in NYC, poor but not in poverty, with a smart, liberal, socially-conscious mother and an adventurous, rebellious father...

In any case, I've just realized that music and food are two of the extremely few things we have in common, but that we both actually get excited about.

The idea of marriage makes me uncomfortable for a multitude of reasons, not all of them necessarily Good or Rational, and while (sadly) I don't think I'll end up getting married (and even then, not in a traditional sort of ceremony) before my father dies (wow, this is turning morbid), if it did happen, I'd be well pleased to play this.

Fave lines: be-bop-a-lula / she-e-e's my baby love / (my baby love, my baby love)

List of all days.